So for Lent my mission was obviously a form of self improvement; particularly thinking before I speak. Which I have to say has been a bit of a struggle, sometimes I do forget. However I do feel that I've done rather well considering how much I forget EVERYTHING. Unfortunately Post-It's don't work for me... I lose them! :)
However perhaps even within that goal perhaps I should have been a lot more particular. Today I caught myself mid thought and realized how I don't talk very nicely to myself. Right now I'm on a self improvement project with my physical well being, however maybe I should have gone a little in the mental category too! First and foremost we should all think better of ourselves.
Why is it that we are so self critical? I do believe in criticism if its constructive, done in a way to benefit a person. How is it that we're not content with who we are? I do believe everyone can improve themselves, but that doesn't mean we should be so harsh as we figure out those self issues.
Today as the lull of my morning dragged on with housework, my mind obviously got to thinking. As I was setting my work out goals and healthy eating goals for the week, a radio show came on the radio. An interesting topic came up about how our social circles affect our weight. Great point. I found it interesting but not new news. Then the talk show host suggested finding friends to work out together with, which helps us follow through with our goals. So then that got my train of thought on enlisting friends. I then started mentally creating this list, and realized, there was no list to create. Truly my social circle consists of my husband and children. Despite the busy lifestyle I can sometimes lead, its because I have to put myself out there for it to be that way.
Then of course my mind started wondering why it is that way. I'm often at home unless its a child related activity or job/volunteer related activity. Many people live similar lifestyles, but also manage to have hobbies and friends that share those hobbies or passions. So many questions ran through my mind at this point. Do I struggle with a social circle because I have so many interests? Or do I struggle with the social circle because of the mystery body pain that can be limiting? Or is it just flat out my personality?
Of course were a zillion thoughts as to why I have this isolated lifestyle of mine, and it zeroed in on my personality or lack there of. So then I fell into a pit of trying to pin point what I do that is so unattractive to people. And of course, naturally, its easy to figure out my own faults. What I can be better at, who I should be more like... then as the day progressed, I realized I just need to flat out stop being so critical on myself. Quit talking to myself in such a negative manner. Do I really think these thoughts? Or am I reading too many magazines? Have I watched too many talk shows in the past? Is it possible I just let too many insecure and negative people into my life that I've allowed their own thoughts become my own? Regardless, its time to stop. It's time to be a little nicer to everyone, but it has to start with being nicer to myself.
